17 November 2010

..and the reason is you..

...why a man have been trying hard to make others happy..
..to cherish all the important people in his life..
...to put others first before himelf..
...to offer his own safety for others well being..

is because..

he's able to do it now..

one of these days..
he'll be an old man..
the one with the most inability..
to be the one, sitting alone, looking and the stars..
thinking of how the years has gone..
and the old man is now alone..
and hoping..
that with Allah blessing..
someone will be sent to be together with this old man..
to walk together as the days passes..
to be the company that will always stay by his side..
until their ride in this world ends..
and that's the reason for it..

and the reason is...you...

09 November 2010

Menanti Cinta (OST Ketika Cinta Bertasbih)

sejak lama aku berdiri
dalam sepinya rongga hati
tak satu pun burung
mampu menjawab

* hanya padaMu ku bertanya
lewat setiap sujudku ini
siapa kah nanti
cinta untukku

wahai penilai hati lihat batinku
nyaris bernanah karna luka tersayat
merana menantikan cinta dan kasih hidupku

rahasia itu hanya Kau yang tahu
namun aku tak mau jadi tuna cinta
tuntun hatiku dalam sabar menanti jodohku

repeat *
repeat reff

rahasia itu hanya Kau yang tahu
namun aku tak mau jadi tuna cinta
namun harus ku ikhlaskan nasib cintaku padaMu

04 November 2010

Pieces of me.

I'm shattered. Broken. Into pieces. That no one will ever notice.

I like you. That's the truth. I have fallen for you. But i just can't find the words to show it. This feeling was never meant to be said. I was hoping that you'd realised from the way i've reacted when it was about you. Love can't be described by words.

I really want to tell you about my feelings. But then, i was afraid that you'll be shocked. I was afraid that i'm going to lose you when you know the truth. I was afraid that you would distance yourself from me when you get to know of my real feelings towards you.

But then, i was wrong. You have met him. And i'm here, stuck and trying to struggle out from this unsaid feelings that's overwhelming me. That's suffocating me. This unsaid love was never meant to be said. I hoped that he'll be able to give you happiness. More than i do. Because your happiness is the most important thing for me. And i know who i really am. I know my weaknesses. I know i can't always be there for you. I know i can't always catch you when you fall. i know that i can never be a superman for u.

but deep in my heart, i'm still hoping...that you'll know of this feeling that i had for you..
let this feeling dies and sweep away a part of me together with it...God,please give me strength to go over this once again... as i'm getting weaker as YOU tried me over n over again with this feeling.

I love you, n*******

I'm shattered.

And these are the pieces of me.